Some days are tougher than others....

This weekend has been tough. I think it is a culmination of several things....attending three weddings last month, my sister getting married, reading "Pretense" - one of my favorite Lori Wick books, watching chick flicks while cleaning my apartment the past couple of days, PMS, being at home alone the past couple of days, and gaining a few pounds on vacation. Most of those things are good or at least a reality of life that normally doesn't bring my spirits down, but all combined together have got me in a little bit of a pity party today...asking questions like, "Why is my sister prettier than me?" "Is anyone ever going to love me?" "Why don't I have more friends?" All quite ridiculous questions when I look at them from the big picture and think clearly, but not today. Today they seem to reflect an unfortunate truth about my life.

Today I feel lonely, ugly, unloved, fat, destined to be alone, sad, etc... I know that these things are not true...at least not wholey true...
-I may be lonely today, but I won't be lonely every day.
-I may feel ugly, but I'm not really...at least not in a way that frightens small children.
-I may feel unloved, but that's SO not true!
-I may be overweight, but thankfully that doesn't define who I am.
-I live alone and may never get married, but I know that God is always with me and won't ever leave.
-I may be sad tonight, but I probably won't be tomorrow!

When I feel like this, I like to say, "It's OK to visit Pity Partyville, but you can't set up camp there!" I can cry a few tears tonight, but in the morning it will be time to buck up and look at things through clearer eyes. And since I often can't do that on my own, I'll be asking God to shine His truth about me into my heart so that I can!